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Disappointment

2008-03-10T03:20:00.000-07:00

T_T geez.. Its March almost the end of school year..next year I'll be a sophomore this June (hopefully). Sadly, I'll transfer to another school, I'm gonna miss my friends, teachers and my special someone..

The announcing of honors is just this morning and sadly.. I didn't make it..even just to reach the 10th place (for all freshmens) T_T. My mom was expecting that I'll be one of the honors but my brains didn't make it. I don't know what to do. I felt a lightning strucked me, of course I'm one of the "qualifiers" and become a wildcard of being an honor. I worked hard on it, I studied hard on it then my hardships results to nothing. I guess I'll accept the fact that it's not my time yet, I've been an honor student since grade school and I guess I'll give chance to others. I know God has its purpose why I didn't became one of them. I even see Athena cried because she didn't make it. I know we just felt the same.

The good thing was, I was one of the Speech Choir member..and I belong to the light group! They say uma apaw daw ang boses namin ni Athena, Ako at Jessa..weee for us ^_^ and on the Dark group pumiyok ang mga boys para dawng kalabaw..hahaha that was very funny, they get always mistaken and on the Medium group parang gusto silang maging light. Ginagaya ang tinig ng light but I guess it was okay. We've been practicing for the whole day our coach was our Social Studies teacher and ofcourse our Adviser and English teacher also..

And signing for clearance for non honors starts this day, whoah! They'll be crazy for the signing because of the reachers reqirements. I guess this is just for today. And I'm gonna tell you, It's a bit sad because of ______ secret. It's very confidential :[

A change is to lose a friend??? :(

2008-02-27T03:13:00.000-08:00

Signing of Clearance for Finals starts now. Running for the teacher's requirements again. Problems also..

My friend and doesn't get along well anymore because I have this word change in her see in me.
same with her. She's been change since she's one of the candidates for SCB election.. what what am I gonna do with her? :[

Vindicated

2008-02-22T03:47:00.000-08:00

It's been a week since I didn't update my blog. I've been very busy these days (as always), last week was our Prefinals and reviewing back this week until next week because on the 1st week of March is our Deliberation to know if who ranks the first in freshmans. I hope I'll be one of them >:) hehehe.

Oh, and the election for the 2nd year representative is on going and some new SCB batch. I'm excited for who will be the next representative. Meeting de Avance kanina.. It was totally fun.. a lot's of presentations. The two parties are both very good. I don't know where I should vote. Vote straight or not?

vote wisely

No class on Monday! yehey! because of EDSA and still very bad..heehee because I don't know I felt bored..lolz..
New lesson on Monday in Science. Got to study the whole chapter 13 and jot down some details in the notebook.

Other one is, my classmate didn't return yet my favorite magazine. I don't know what did she do it. Good thing my mp3 has been returned. I am also focusing my movie analysis now of a film. It's pretty easy because I just browsed on the internet xD.

Next week is signing of clearance . gee It i so hard pala to be an honor student but fun! ;]

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Glory of Love ♥

2008-02-03T04:05:00.000-08:00

Its been awhile since I didn't update my blog, because I was very busy these days. Signing of clearance starts tomorrow! and I was not expecting that study circle will be back again T_T. It's been a week that study cirlcle came back. Anyways I can mentor my pesky little classmates again. Today I was very busy writing the whole Mathematics on my notebook, I was jotting down because signing of clearance is near and our Math teacher is very strict xD. I wear glasses now. waaah! O.O, I don't have an eye deffect, just glasses for the computers, anti- radiation you know. So that my eyes won't easily be damaged by some computer radiation. Classes tomorrow again, uggh. I'll be good starting tomorrow so that our teacher will sign our clearance xD.

Last friday, my boyfriend and I had gone out, I was sneaking out just for that.
And my rival seen us in the plaza. She was such in rage and we didn't just mind her,
She looks crazy to be like that. I bet she's jealous and laughing she's very obvious that she's plastic kind of girl. Good thing I win my boyfriend back, I really love him .
I wont't like to go back to the past. It really hurts.
The goodnews was my boyfriend and I have the "3rd kiss" . We made a promise, so that I won't be hurt again. I know he loves me and I love him back to, very much.

Back for today, we went to our cousin's 1st birthday to her daughter. My young brother and I felt out of place because it was a kid's party . We went home and back during the night (adult's party) and it was fine then. Classes tomorrow again, whiww and signing of clearance also. Before I end my blog. Kung Hye Fat Choi everyone! Chinese New Year this February 7, 2008. I had a badluck( I hope not) this year Year of the Dog is masakitin daw :[ . I'll be a lucky charm next week xD.

Viva Señor Sto. Niño!

2008-01-23T02:36:00.000-08:00

Viva Señor Sto. Niño!!

So today was it. Today was the feast day of Sto. Niño.

So our school celebrated it. We are dancing Sinulog in honor of Señor Sto. Niño. Every year level shall compete. First, we go to church and attended a mass. Then some programs, games and food exhibit. After that, lunch time, then preparing for the costumes then make up for girls. Then meeting for some informations. Our trainor said that

Sinulog is not all about competitions but making an offer and praising to Sto. Niño, and dancing not by mind but through heart.

We learn from that from our trainor. So we did our very best we can do. We have a little praying then start of the parade... street dancing...

The first competor was the Juniors followed by the Seniors then by Sophomores and lastly us, the Freshmens.

The awarding came to be announced. On the minor awards was

Most Disciplined Contingent - Seniors

Best in Street Dancing - Freshmens

Best in Costume - Freshmens

Best in Choreography - Freshmens

And on the major awards were:

Champion - Freshmens

2nd Runner up - Sophomores

3rd Runner up - Seniors

4th Runner up - Juniors

So that is the first time in our campus that ,we, Freshmans are the champions..hehehe..and we don't expect that we will win this competition because we're just freshmans and easily beaten,but not now. We prove them wrong. :)

So here are some of our pictures.

Aren't they nice? xD

I'm one of the Freshman contigents by the way..hehehe

Thanks to kuya Jhofile and kuya JM of Carmen, Cebu City we made it all. =)

For me, we are all winners because we offer our dance to Sto. Niño

Pit Señor!

Le Tour de Cebu xD

2008-01-11T04:16:00.000-08:00

Today was our Educational Tour and it is very fun. Laughing and taking pictures of our destination at the same time and also we gain some learnings about our tour. We left very early at our school. I thought I was going to be dizzy with the ride but I didn't even felt it at all.hehehe..well some of my classmates vomitted and puked because of the ride but we are still having fun. Singing at the bus, cam whoring, playing karaoke at the bus(TV) and watching TV and DvDs. Others are sleeping, some are

First stop, Greenwich at SM Cebu :] we make our own pizza and seeing kitchen..wahehe

Second stop is USP Rizal museum..this was the relics and some remaining property and things of Dr. Jose Rizal

Third stop is Mactan Shrine..where Lapu-Lapu and Magellan fought battle

*********************************lunch***********************************

Fourth one is at Sto. Niño Basilica..it was nice..nagiging curious kami..xD and some dresses of the Spaniards a long time ago, Spanish friars..

Fifth stop is SM again..and this time... s h o p p i n g hehehe xD but it's only 30 minutes. I only buy a Total Girl magazine at Powerbook(s)..hehehe

then the last one is at C I C C or Cebu International Convention Center. It was nice and big but not ~~really that beautiful~~

then after that.. h o m e s w e e t h o m e...hehehe xD

Well my classmate and my seatmate of the buss..puked..and just collapsed..lol..goodthing our school nurse was at our bus..hehehe

I enjoy our trip..hehehe

Face Down

2008-01-09T05:11:00.000-08:00

I'm not really satisfied with my life..
I have a hard time forgetting my hurtful past..
Going back to the past can be hurt. As I look at the shallow sea in our city. I can remember that past can be hurtful too. Some may have happy times and unforgetable ones, but I'm just wondering. Why sad memories are easy to recall and hard to forget while the happy and joyful ones are sometimes forgotten. For me, I consider past is the way to be a sucessful person i the future. I learned many things in the past, especially to those many and hard challenges I've been through. It makes me become a stronger and a sucessful person. Also, the person who hurts us are and always been remembered while the person good to us are easily forgotten. Just like I have said before. I should let go to the past. Not now, not tomorrow but someday

in my mind...

2008-01-04T01:37:00.000-08:00

Today was just like...urghh..I can explain I'm confused, hurt, excited and mixed up.
I was excited because Sinulog or highschool day is coming up..hehe and the tour also..hehe
We're gonna have a practice this next week on Monday..gee I'm so excited..hehe

Oh,, and the payment for Sinulog dance is..quite expensive..lol -_-

The sad thing today was..I'm confused on my boyfriend..why did he ignores me? He's not like that with me..just for now.. and I was hurt because I am wondering what's in his mind.
I am not used that he's like that. I got a feeling that there is something wrong. I am trying to think positively now..T_T

He's the Only One for mee, my love.. I ♥ Gray.. so much and I think he deserves this song.

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, ~~I can't get up when you're gone~~

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

and another one.. My ♥ by Paramore

I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone

Stay with me, this is what I need, please?

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope

This time I will be listening.

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
This heart, it beats, beats for only you

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is your's

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is your's
(My heart, it beats for you)

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
(It beats, beats for only you. My heart is your's)
My heart, my heart is your's
(Please don't go now, Please don't fade away)
My heart, my heart is your's
(Please don't go now, Please don't fade away)
My heart is your's
My heart is your's
(Please don't go now, Please don't fade away)
My heart is your's
My heart is...

I wonder what he's up to now?..

I'm trying to forget the past but it still ~~haunts me~~ back sometimes..
but I guess I'm alright now..past is past. and I'm trying to forget about it though the past hurts sometimes when I remember it or when it comes to my mind.

Now is now, present is present and the important is now..the present and forget about the past.

Faster..

2008-01-03T04:17:00.000-08:00

I day today was a relief. Why? because I didn't went to school this morning..why again? because my alarm clock was broken. I woke up late, almost 8am in the morning. I was very late at class. I just excused that I have a dysmenorrhea (did I spell right?).

When I was in school, I saw my boyfriend with a new haircut, he is now opaw. He looks okay but I like his hair when it was emo.. Now, he got disciplined and sermon ng teacher why kasi nagpapa skin eh, ayan tuloy..hahayz naman..hehehe.. I miss him already..and what ever look he has I will always love him.

On school, it seems to be fine. We really didn't have class because of the test paper checking.
It's back to school, New Year, New Life

Oh, and highschool days are fast approaching, that was again...
We must dance sinulog in honor of Señor Sto. Niño in Cebu, but we are not really competing in Cebu for mardigras, it's our school only..

it competes from the freshmens, sophomores, juniors and the seniors that was very stressing now, practicing and chanting Pit Señor! but before highschool days( Jan. 22-23, 2008)

We will have a tour around Cebu, from first year to fourth year also that will be happening on Jan 11, 2008. The first years an the second years are on Ayala while the third years and the fourth years are on SM (swerte nila northwing pa! T_T). We are also going to a factory or something and the blah blah blah..hehehe.

Oh, and my soundcard isn't working yet..I'm trying to fix it..but the codex isn't right..T_T
but I'll try to download some codex or buy it. I guess..

No study circle anymore? I guess and I hope so..XD

I think nag memeeting lang ang mga personnels kanina..para sa highschool days..
but I hope study circle is canceled na..XD

New Life, New Begining

2008-01-02T03:55:00.000-08:00

It's a long time, I didn't blog just for now.
and my old blog didn't work out
so I made a new one..
Everything's alright now. The girl and I are at peace now. ( I guess)
"G"'s cousin forgives me. ( I guess)
It's 2008, I'll have a new life. Forget the past, laught it out loud.
Stressing today was, tomorrow is back to school again.
I miss my friends though, I like to have more vacation
Oh, back to school, typical assignments, lectures, day dreaming at school, and some gossips
with friends. What they have been doing through long days of vacation.
I wonder what my friends are up to know
I bet they'll have a
new look this year
I'm so excited for tomorrow
I can wait..hehe
but I wish I can wake up early .
because I was so called na lihi an for waking up
very late. Was I going to believe that?
probably yes, it can be a no also..haha
I wish that there are changes or improvements when I get back
or when the class stars again

oh and by the way here my New Year's Resolutions

Be obedient
Study hard
Don't be too sensitive anymore
Try to avoid lie.
Be friendly
Be confident
Be understanding
Be quick and witty
Try to be independent

This is a challenge for me to make myself improve throughout the year :]

I expect to myself too that there are big changes in me.

I hope I'll be lucky this year, Goodspeed and Godbless to me

" New Year, New life, New begining a start of something new"